Hurts To Sit Down With Period

After the death of Rodrigo I left thinking that if someone with whom I had had a relationship of near anything happened just as tragic? I thought of 2 people only, Rafa, Omar, imagine the scenes and my heart broke, the situations were quite different, with one does not wear anything wrong, every time we talked like we were great friends while we were couples, finally were almost 3 years of life together, and I even wanted to marry. With Omar things are different, I still hurt so much that something will happen.

saw my friend at the foot of the tomb of Rodrigo and imagine all the memories that passed through his head, my eyes filled with tears that never failed to leave, despite the reasons that were not together a long time there was a very strong affection, there was no goodbye, it was all so sudden, in a blink of an eye he is no longer more or will be.

few days ago to see again Omar in a meeting and I remembered some of these thoughts originated Rodrigo's death, I was born the anger that was 2 months ago by his failed attempts to approach lies, I should point out that anger was also innocent happen with me again, but I did not feel it in my chest so explosive , so devastating, in fact I felt something quiet, peaceful and I was curious because I asked to speak with me, I like the third time and had shelved the issue, but my curiosity that kills cats small raises me in my crazy head what? What? What do you mean? and not because I expect to say something in particular, but because they ask the question and let me know lol, but I think whether it is worth exposing myself again ... and fell into the trap babosamente sometimes, if I fall I'll give cap on the wall to accommodate these neurons disconnected or kill the innocent, whichever comes first.

First I have to talk to Eric on this issue ... because in my zeal to keep out of this I have the uninformed, it's time you know in a summary of the sad history and finds out he has been the contrast in my life and as he came along with the emotional balance. I know that whatever was needed to live what we live together, it was worth it, if God took my hand as I thought mine was because I needed them open and free to receive what I was getting ready, transitions are always difficult.